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it　may　all　be　for　nothing！

the　papers　are　full　of　invasion　news　and　are　driving　everyone　insane　with　such　statements　as：　〃in　the　event　of　a　british　landing　in　holland；　the　germans　will　do　what　they　can　to　defend　the　country；　even　flooding　it；　if　necessary。〃　theyve　published　maps　of　holland　with　the　potential　flood　areas　marked。　since　large　portions　of　amsterdam　were　shaded　in；　our　first　question　was　what　we　should　do　if　the　water　in　the　streets　rose　to　above　our　waists。　this　tricky　question　elicited　a　variety　of　responses：

〃itll　be　impossible　to　walk　or　ride　a　bike；　so　well　have　to　wade　through　the　water。鈥�

〃dont　be　silly。　well　have　to　try　and　swim。　well　all　put　on　our　bathing　suits　and　caps　and　swim　underwater　as　much　as　we　can；　so　nobody　can　see　were　jews。鈥�

〃oh；　baloney！　i　can　just　imagine　the　ladies　swimming　with　the　rats　biting　their　legs！鈥�

（that　was　a　man；　of　course；　well　see　who　screams　loudest！）

〃we　wont　even　be　able　to　leave　the　house。　the　warehouse　is　so　unstable　itll　collapse　if　theres　a　flood。鈥�

〃listen；　everyone；　all　joking　aside；　we　really　ought　to　try　and　get　a　boat。鈥�

〃why　bother？　i　have　a　better　idea。　we　can　each　take　a　packing　crate　from　the　attic　and　row　with　a　wooden　spoon。鈥�

〃im　going　to　walk　on　stilts。　i　used　to　be　a　whiz　at　it　when　i　was　young。〃

〃jan　gies　wont　need　to。　hell　let　his　wife　ride　piggyback；　and　then　miep　will　be　on　stilts。鈥�

so　now　you　have　a　rough　idea　of　whats　going　on；　dont　you；　kit？　this　lighthearted　banter　is　all　very　amusing；　but　reality　will　prove　otherwise。　the　second　question　about　the　invasion　was　bound　to　arise：　what　should　we　do　if　the　germans　evacuate　amsterdam？

〃leave　the　city　along　with　the　others。　disguise　ourselves　as　well　as　we　can。鈥�

〃whatever　happens；　dont　go　outside！　the　best　thing　to　do　is　to　stay　put！　the　germans　are　capable　of　herding　the　entire　population　of　holland　into　germany；　where　theyll　all　die。鈥�

〃of　course　well　stay　here。　this　is　the　safest　place。

well　try　to　talk　kleiman　and　his　family　into　ing　here　to　live　with　us。　well　somehow　get　hold　of　a　bag　of　wood　shavings；　so　we　can　sleep　on　the　floor。　lets　ask　miep　and　kleiman　to　bring　some　blankets；　just　in　case。　and　well　order　some　extra　cereal　grains　to　supplement　the　sixty…five　pounds　we　already　have。　jan　can　try　to　find　some　more　beans。　at　the　moment　weve　got　about　sixty…five　pounds　of　beans　and　ten　pounds　of　split　peas。　and　dont　forget　the　fifty　cans　of　vegetables。鈥�

〃what　about　the　rest；　mother？　give　us　the　latest　figures。　；　〃ten　cans　of　fish；　forty　cans　of　milk；　twenty　pounds　of　powdered　milk；　three　bottles　of　oil；　four　crocks　of　butter；　four　jars　of　meat；　two　big　jars　of　strawberries；　two　jars　of　raspberries；　twenty　jars　of　tomatoes；　ten　pounds　of　oatmeal；　nine　pounds　of　rice。

thats　it。鈥�

our　provisions　are　holding　out　fairly　well。　all　the　same；　we　have　to　feed　the　office　staff；　which　means　dipping　into　our　stock　every　week；　so　its　not　as　much　as　it　seems。

we　have　enough　coal　and　firewood；　candles　too。

〃lets　all　make　little　moneybags　to　hide　in　our　clothes　so　we　can　take　our　money　with　us　if　we　need　to　leave　here。鈥�

〃we　can　make　lists　of　what　to　take　first　in　case　we　have　to　run　for　it；　and　pack　our　knapsacks　in　advance。〃

〃when　the　time　es；　well　put　two　people　on　the　lookout；　one　in　the　loft　at　the　front　of　the　house　and　one　in　the　back。鈥�

〃hey；　whats　the　use　of　so　much　food　if　there　isnt　any　water；　gas　or　electricity？鈥�

〃well　have　to　cook　on　the　wood　stove。　filter　the　water　and　boil　it。　we　should　clean　some　big　jugs　and　fill　them　with　water。　we　can　also　store　water　in　the　three　kettles　we　use　for　canning；　and　in　the　washtub。鈥�

〃besides；　we　still　have　about　two　hundred　and　thirty　pounds　of　winter　potatoes　in　the　spice　storeroom。鈥�

all　day　long　thats　all　i　hear。　invasion；　invasion；　nothing　but　invasion。　arguments　about　going　hungry；　dying；　bombs；　fire　extinguishers；　sleeping　bags；　identity　cards；　poison　gas；　etc。；　etc。　not　exactly　cheerful。

a　good　example　of　the　explicit　warnings　of　the　male　contingent　is　the　following　conversation　with　jan：

annex：　〃were　afraid　that　when　the　germans　retreat；　theyll　take　the　entire　population　with　them。鈥�

jan：　〃thats　impossible。　they　havent　got　enough　trains。鈥�

annex：　〃trains？　do　you　really　think　theyd　put　civilians　on　trains？　absolutely　not。

everyone　would　have　to　hoof　it。〃　（or；　as　dussel　always　says；　per　pedes　apostolorum。）

jan：　〃i　cant　believe　that。　youre　always　looking　on　the　dark　side。　what　reason　would　they　have　to　round　up　all　the　civilians　and　take　them　along？鈥�

annex：　〃dont　you　remember　goebbels　saying　that　if　the　germans　have　to　go；　theyll　slam　the　doors　to　all　the　occupied　territories　behind　them？鈥�

jan：　〃theyve　said　a　lot　of　things。鈥�

annex：　〃do　you　think　the　germans　are　too　noble　or　humane　to　do　it？　their　reasoning　is：　if　we　go　under；　well　drag　everyone　else　down　with　us。鈥�

jan：　〃you　can　say　what　you　like；　i　just　dont　believe　annex：　〃its　always　the　same　old　story。　no　one　wants　to　see　the　danger　until　its

staring　them　in　the　face。鈥�

jan：　〃but　you　dont　know　anything　for　sure。　youre　just　making　an　assumption。鈥�

annex：　〃because　weve　already　been　through　it　all　ourselves；　first　in　germany　and　then　here。　what　do　you　thinks　happening　in　russia？鈥�

jan：　〃you　shouldnt　include　the　jews。　i　dont　think　anyone　knows　whats　going　on　in　russia。　the　british　and　the　russians　are　probably　exaggerating　for　propaganda　purposes；　just　like　the　germans。鈥�

annex：　〃absolutely　not。　the　bbc　has　always　told　the　truth。　and　even　if　the　news　is　slightly　exaggerated；　the　facts　are　bad　enough　as　they　are。　you　cant　deny　that　millions　of　peace…loving　citizens　in　poland　and　russia　have　been　murdered　or　gassed。鈥�

ill　spare　you　the　rest　of　our　conversations。　im　very　calm　and　take　no　notice　of　all　the　fuss。　ive　reached　the　point　where　i　hardly　care　whether　i　live　or　die。　the　world　will　keep　on　turning　without　me；　and　i　cant　do　anything　to　change　events　anyway。　ill　just　let　matters　take　their　course　and　concentrate　on　studying　and　hope　that　everything　will　be　all　right　in　the　end。

yours；　anne　

tuesday；　february　8；　1944

dear　kitty；

i　cant　tell　you　how　i　feel。　one　minute　im　longing　for　peace　and　quiet；　and　the　next　for　a　little　fun。　weve　forgotten　how　to　laugh　　i　mean；　laughing　so　hard　you　can　t　stop。

this　morning　i　had　〃the　giggles〃；　you　know；　the　kind　we　used　to　have　at　school。

margot　and　i　were　giggling　like　real　teenagers。

last　night　there　was　another　scene　with　mother。　margot　was　tucking　her　wool　blanket　around　her　when　suddenly　she　leapt　out　of　bed　and　carefully　examined　the　blanket。

what　do　you　think　she　found？　a　pin！　mother　had　patched　the　blanket　and　forgotten　to　take　it　out。　father　shook　his　head　meaningfully　and　made　a　ment　about　how　careless　mother　is。　soon　afterward　mother　came　in　from　the　bathroom；　and　just　to　tease　her　i　said；　〃du　bist　doch　eine　echte　rabenmutter。〃　＇oh；　you　are　cruel。＇

of　course；　she　asked　me　why　id　said　that；　and　we　told　her　about　the　pin　shed　overlooked。　she　immediately　assumed　her　haughtiest　expression　and　said；　〃youre　a　fine　one　to　talk。　when　youre　sewing；　the　entire　floor　is　covered　with　pins。　and　look；　youve　left　the　manicure　set　lying　around　again。　you　never　put　that　away　either！鈥�

i　said　i　hadnt　used　it；　and　margot　backed　me　up；　since　she　was　the　guilty　party。

mother　went　on　talking　about　how　messy　i　was　until　i　got　fed　up　and　said；　rather　curtly；　〃i　wasnt　even　the　one　who　said　you　were　careless。　im　always　getting　blamed　for　other　peoples　mistakes！鈥�

mother　fell　silent；　and　less　than　a　minute　later　i　was　obliged　to　kiss　her　good…night。

this　incident　may　not　have　been　very　important；　but　these　days　everything　gets　on　my　nerves。

anne　mary　frank

saturday；　february　12；　1944

dearest　kitty；

the　sun　is　shining；　the　sky　is　deep　blue；　theres　a　magnificent　breeze；　and　im　longing　　really　longing　　for　everything：　conversation；　freedom；　friends；　being　alone。　i　long。　。　。　to　cry！　i　feel　as　if　i　were　about　to　explode。　i　know　crying　would　help；　but　i　cant　cry。　im　restless。　i　walk　from　one　room　to　another；　breathe　through　the　crack　in　the　window　frame；　feel　my　heart　beating　as　if　to　say；　〃fu